On my way back home from visiting my baby at the hospital. Im so crushed I want to burst in tears right now /’: my son is now 4 lbs. 7oz. He’s out his incubator into a normal crib, he can maintain his temperature &he can drink from a bottle as well as breastfeed. Yet the nurses are telling me he cant go home yet because I dont have enough milk ?!! Because they have to watch me for a week to see how comfortable I am with him &make sure im feeding him properly??!! WTF! Who the fuck are they to judge me and decide if im ready to be a mother? Like I didnt become a mother the day I got pregnant. Like I didnt carry him inside me &learned to love him more and more each day as my belly got bigger. Like I didnt feel him moving, kicking & flipping inside of me all day everyday. Like he wasnt the only one that was there the days I felt lonley, broken, &just in tears telling him how scared I was, but that everthing was going to be okay &for him not to worry. Like I didnt fall in love the first time I held him in my arms &looked at him.. Who are they to keep my son away from me until they think im ready. It’s just not fair. I just want to be home already & fall asleep :(

I wish i looked beautiful with no makeup,sweats, and a messy bun.